How? How has this happened? And I don't mean that in the way it's often said; as in 'how am I 40 years old, I was just 20'. No, I mean, I didn't think I would be alive at 30, how am I still here? At 28 my life spiralled. From seemingly having it all to feeling like I had nothing. I wanted out, the battle was too hard, the thoughts were too dark, the emptiness too welcoming. And being here the next day, week, month felt unlikely and almost undesired. So to be here 12 years lat

We are coming into Spring, there's plently of rain right now and the sun is just around the corner. But what's next? I have been having that feeling recently, a kind of mixture of emotions. I feel very unclear and uncertian about what's next. What's the next big (or even medium) project? How will things change in the next year? What does that look like? At home, we are about to convert our garage to a utility room. This will be the final big 'moving in job' we have planned/ c

Lately, social media has been filled with throwback photos and captions reflecting on 2016. Apparently that's a decade ago! 2016 seems somehow both yesterday and a lifetime away. As I scroll through old pictures, I find myself pausing, not just at the images, but at what sat quietly behind them. 2016 was complicated. On the surface, there were genuine moments of joy. That was the year I attended my first Mental Health Bloggers Meetup in Manchester. It was the beginning of fee