Its been awhile...again. I have been finding writing more easy to put off, or rather less enthusiasm about doing it lately. I have started to think about doing a podcast as that (in my mind) could be done more ad hoc, or could even be organised if I was doing it with other people. I think for me as well. I have found myself listening to podcasts much more than I read blogs. So it is kind of matching up with what I'm interested in. Medication-wise I am still on the 40mg of cit

About five weeks ago now I had another appointment with my GP. At that time we reviewed my 10 weeks on citalopram, and took into account my current experiences. At this time my GP recommended that my citalopram dosage was increased from 20 to 40 mg. This seemed like a beneficial decision to me, while it's never going to be good to hear you probably need more medication, I felt the citalopram had been helping. It had decreased the intensity of my thoughts, but not the frequenc

So it's been awhile... I think last time I posted my medication had just been increased, since then there's been a few changes. I was originally on 20mg of citalopram, which after my first review was increased to 40mg. The 20mg had helped with decreasing the intensity of the thoughts and emotions I was having. However they had not affected the frequency. I still faced constant torture with feelings of low mood, low morale, low energy, low motivation, generally very low. I was

It's been a while, for a few things I suppose. This is actually the third or fourth post I've started to write, but for whatever reason the other two didn't quite make it. I think I was probably about half way through and then something will come up and after I don't come back to writing. I have had Demi Lovato 'Stone Cold' on a loop for the last 10 to 15 minutes so I'm feeling quite relaxed and in the mood to type out some thoughts. Well, not sure where to start so this coul

After New Year I decided that I had to start taking the antidepressants that my Doctor had prescribed to me at the start of December. For lots of reasons I had tried to not take them, even as someone who would recommend to others that they should take the help that is available to them. Including recognising the importance of treating the brain in the same way as other body parts, when there is a problem or an injury we treat it sometimes that is rest sometimes that's medicat